After a long period of prayer, confusion, stubbornness, fear, the works, in April last year, I made a decision to resign my workplace. You can read this blog, that I wrote as I went through the motions from prayer to being stubborn to being confused.
3 months later, I left the job and started working on setting up Lapid Leaders Africa. Again, this statements takes away the agony of not knowing where God wanted me to move to, the how and where and who’s of that season are still fresh in my memory. This blog was written around that time. In ways that only God can, the Lapid Leaders boat took off, and as we plan the graduation of the first cohort of Lapid Leaders, the song in my heart, audibly and loudly so is ‘Never once did we ever walk alone, Never once did You leave us on our own, You are faithful, God, You are faithful’
But before I sing this song, I cannot help but look back and see the naivety behind the many decisions I made. I thought that recruiting students into Lapid Leaders would be a piece of cake, afterall the ‘product’ was sound, naivety. I thought I knew the roles the various people in my life would play in making this dream a reality, naivety. I thought I knew how my support system would look like, naivety. I thought I knew how finances would flow, naivety. I thought I knew how this story would unfold, naivety. I look back and I see a lot of naivety.
Yet it is because of that naivety that I have continued to take these steps. In my world, that naivety reads faith. I have come to understand what God meant when He said “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven..
This morning as I was doing my morning devotion, I read abut a woman that I really admire, the Cannanite woman. This woman has been told off by the Lord Jesus, “He replied, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”. Yet its her response that has always tag at my heart, she will not get side-tracked, she is focused on the issue at hand, “Yes it is, Lord,” she said. “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”’. The persistence that it takes to hear such words from the Lord and still say I will not let you go, the love for a child that it takes to hold onto the Savior until the child is healed, I see many great traits in this lady. But today I realised something that I have always missed, that out of all these great traits, the only one that the Lord recognizes and moves Him to action, is faith. The persistence, the love were all good, but faith got her miracle. Then Jesus said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” And her daughter was healed at that moment.
God works with our faith. This has been my journey, as I have naively believed in God’s provision, as I have trusted Him for a support system, as I have asked Him to recruit Lapid Leaders for me, each step of the way He has said, Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.. So a year after this very naive decision, the song in my heart is loud.
Standing on this mountaintop, looking just how far we’ve come. Knowing that for every step You were with us. Kneeling on this battle ground, seeing just how much You’ve done knowing every victory is Your power in us …Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us on our own. You are faithful O God, You are faithful….
Scars and all
Don’t mistake me, it has not always been an easy journey. Some of the bumps and turns have been very hard. Some days I have resolved to give up. If you know the feeling of being on a bumpy flight, then you know its not been easy. But…
Scars and struggles on the way but with joy our hearts can say yes, our hearts can say. Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us on our own. You are faithful, God, You are faithful
My heart can say as David did, I have seen the Lord. There is a level of faith that is only possible with this kind of journey. I have learned to depend on God. I have learn to recognize His hand. I have learned to seek Him with all my heart. I have learned to run to His feet and ask what next. Most of all, I have learned to let God fight battles for me. Never once….
The work ahead
As we approach our very first graduation, I know without a doubt that the work ahead is great! I just need to look at the journey over the last many months to know we have only begun. I just need to look at emails I have received from some of the Lapid Leaders we have worked with to know the work must continue.
With God’s help, we will raise many more young people to be values-driven leaders and entrepreneurs. With God’s help, we will challenge the young people to change the story of Africa. With God’s help, we will raise a generation of leaders who God will use to rebuild this our continent. With God’s help, a new story over the next generation will begin to be written. Exciting times are ahead, each step of the way, You God. This is your vision, your work and the word I hold onto is still ‘I will build my church and no gates of hell will prevail against it’.
What places of faith is God calling you to? I will be the first to tell you it will not always be easy, but I will also tell you if He leads, it will be the best journey you’ll ever make. We are a generation of seeing is believing. I still wonder if we can do what Abraham was told to do, pack and go, without knowing where He was going but trusting the Voice that was leading Him. I have learned He will never give you the full blueprint. But when You know in your heart where He is leading you, when He has spoken to your mind that it is time to take steps of faith, follow Him with all you have. Then you’ll sing this song with us, Never once!