Never once did we ever walk alone

After a long period of prayer, confusion, stubbornness, fear, the works, in April last year, I made a decision to resign my workplace. You can read this blog, that I wrote as I went through the motions from prayer to being stubborn to being confused.

3 months later, I left the job and started working on setting up Lapid Leaders Africa. Again, this statements takes away the agony of not knowing where God wanted me to move to, the how and where and who’s of that season are still fresh in my memory. This blog was written around that time. In ways that only God can, the Lapid Leaders boat took off, and as we plan the graduation of the first cohort of Lapid Leaders, the song in my heart, audibly and loudly so is ‘Never once did we ever walk alone, Never once did You leave us on our own, You are faithful, God, You are faithful’

Naive moments

But before I sing this song, I cannot help but look back and see the naivety behind the many decisions I made. I thought that recruiting students into Lapid Leaders would be a piece of cake, afterall the ‘product’ was sound, naivety. I thought I knew the roles the various people in my life would play in making this dream a reality, naivety. I thought I knew how my support system would look like, naivety. I thought I knew how finances would flow, naivety. I thought I knew how this story would unfold, naivety. I look back and I see a lot of naivety.

Yet it is because of that naivety that I have continued to take these steps. In my world, that naivety reads faith. I have come to understand what God meant when He said “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven..

This morning as I was doing my morning devotion, I read abut a woman that I really admire, the Cannanite woman. This woman has been told off by the Lord Jesus, “He replied, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.. Yet its her response that has always tag at my heart, she will not get side-tracked, she is focused on the issue at hand, “Yes it is, Lord,” she said. “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”’. The persistence that it takes to hear such words from the Lord and still say I will not let you go, the love for a child that it takes to hold onto the Savior until the child is healed, I see many great traits in this lady. But today I realised something that I have always missed, that out of all these great traits, the only one that the Lord recognizes and moves Him to action, is faith. The persistence, the love were all good, but faith got her miracle. Then Jesus said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” And her daughter was healed at that moment.

God works with our faith. This has been my journey, as I have naively believed in God’s provision, as I have trusted Him for a support system, as I have asked Him to recruit Lapid Leaders for me, each step of the way He has said, Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.. So a year after this very naive decision, the song in my heart is loud. 

Standing on this mountaintop, looking just how far we’ve come. Knowing that for every step You were with us. Kneeling on this battle ground, seeing just how much You’ve done knowing every victory is Your power in us …Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us on our own. You are faithful O God, You are faithful….

Scars and all

Don’t mistake me, it has not always been an easy journey. Some of the bumps and turns have been very hard. Some days I have resolved to give up. If you know the feeling of being on a bumpy flight, then you know its not been easy. But…

Scars and struggles on the way but with joy our hearts can say yes, our hearts can say. Never once did we ever walk alone. Never once did You leave us on our own. You are faithful, God, You are faithful

My heart can say as David did, I have seen the Lord. There is a level of faith that is only possible with this kind of journey. I have learned to depend on God. I have learn to recognize His hand. I have learned to seek Him with all my heart. I have learned to run to His feet and ask what next. Most of all, I have learned to let God fight battles for me. Never once….

The work ahead

As we approach our very first graduation, I know without a doubt that the work ahead is great! I just need to look at the journey over the last many months to know we have only begun. I just need to look at emails I have received from some of the Lapid Leaders we have worked with to know the work must continue.

With God’s help, we will raise many more young people to be values-driven leaders and entrepreneurs. With God’s help, we will challenge the young people to change the story of Africa. With God’s help, we will raise a generation of leaders who God will use to rebuild this our continent. With God’s help, a new story over the next generation will begin to be written. Exciting times are ahead, each step of the way, You God. This is your vision, your work and the word I hold onto is still ‘I will build my church and no gates of hell will prevail against it’.

What places of faith is God calling you to? I will be the first to tell you it will not always be easy, but I will also tell you if He leads, it will be the best journey you’ll ever make. We are a generation of seeing is believing. I still wonder if we can do what Abraham was told to do, pack and go, without knowing where He was going but trusting the Voice that was leading Him. I have learned He will never give you the full blueprint. But when You know in your heart where He is leading you, when He has spoken to your mind that it is time to take steps of faith, follow Him with all you have. Then you’ll sing this song with us, Never once!

Occupy till I come

Frustrated, that was the word in my spirit when I woke up a few days ago. Then I thought I should belt out a scream that may help me feel less frustrated. So I screamed in the most dignified way I know how to, after all I still have a reputation with my neighbors that I need to guard. Unfortunately I still felt frustrated. Perhaps hitting the wall would help? Maybe, but my pretty little fingers would not allow me to hurt them. So I did what I should have from the moment I woke up, I raised my head to the heavens and asked for help. (more…)

Fear of being misused

It has been a while since I visited the world of blogging, I have missed this world of blogging, I must visit it more often. Anywho, this year seems to be running, how else can you explain that we are about to see the first quarter of the year come to an end! Seeing that I cannot stop time from racing past me, I have decided to take stock of the things I feel this year is about. (more…)

Invitation to candy crush world

Candy crush Level 149

I am sure you have received many invites to play this game called candy crush. Like many of you, I used to get irritated by these invites. “What do these people who send me these invites think, that I have nothing better to do with my time? That I am looking to fill my time with a ‘useless’ game? I will even block them from being my Facebook friends just to teach them a lesson!” I know you know how those thoughts go. Then one day I decided to peek into this game just to see what the fuss was about. Bad idea, and the rest is history. (more…)

Collapsed buildings and all

A comment that was made by one of the Lapid Leaders in a seminar we recently held has stuck with me. We were discussing the events that transpired as part of #OccupyPlayGround. He said that within a few weeks we will have forgotten this issue and a new issue will be trending. A few weeks earlier in a similar seminar, we had been discussing #MyDressMyChoice. Now #MyDressMyChoice was history and we had moved on to #OccupyPlayGround. Perhaps our ability to move on is a gift, maybe, perhaps, no? (more…)

The dream team

Last Sunday I attended 2 services in 2 different churches, I either am an addict of churches or am a church hopper. I am still chewing on that, I would like to believe I am neither of the 2 but hey, attending 2 services in a day is not normal, right? Interestingly, both these services left me with a similar message, a build up to last week’s blogpost (you can read last week’s post here). (more…)

A year of wisdom and tact

I love how a new year brings hope to many of us, it is almost like we have a clean slate and we can write a new story. As 2014 came to an end, I realized it was one of the hardest years I have gone through in the recent past. It had its amazing moments, but all in all it was a tough year. Yet I can confidently say ‘all that the enemy meant for evil, God has turned for good’. There were many land mines in 2014, many moments when the enemy threatened to destroy my soul, to destroy my destiny, to derail me from the plans God had in stock for me. But God stood in gap through it all. This song makes a lot of sense, ‘Mercy said no, I am not gonna let you go, when darkness threatened to steal my joy, my peace away, Mercy said no’ (more…)